hi i am back

hi people it been a long time since i blogged yeah i know i have said like this sentence quite anumber of time LOOL
feel new back here
lool
i wonder is that my honest feeling
so O's have ended
APPLAUSE
actually
many thing had happen during this period of time
before or after o's
there was a period that i was feeling very down
as one of my closest relative have leave this world
and she is my grandma
not many ppl know about
maybe just my friends and all yup
decided to post this as i dun think many ppl understand how i felt after i know this news
included my parent and some close relative
so to sort of release some sort of emotion here haha
to be honest
when i heard about this news
i wasnt really shocked
as i think i have sort of guess it
when i went back to visit her during the sept hols
my younger cousin told me that she is giving out her jewellery
and i was very shock to heard
hmm
normally most ppl will understand what this mean
yea
so after hearing this news
the next morning we rush back to malaysia
but before that day
my cousin called me and ask me how i am
so i said i was fine
but honestly
i wasn't i was actually holding up my tears when she was talking about it
and eventually i did burst out of tear
with a choke voice
and i tot she know about it
until one day something happen oso she talk to me again
and i realise she does not know about
i tot she would know as she have been living with me since young
i tot i found someone that know me quite well other then my parent
i totally can't believe that she doesn't know about
but maybe is partially my fault too
i am use to hide my feeling to myself and nv tell anybody including ppl who are very close to me
in their brain they must have thought of me a very cool person like a person with a cold heart
or maybe no feeling other that happiness(?) maybe
ok yup back to the main point
i reach back malaysia
and i saw my grandma lying there
and i dun really dare to look as i almost burst out of tears when i saw her
i actually cannot believe the fact that she leave this place
she just look so beautifully there sleeping
after awhile i was adjusting to it
and i was happy that my cousin yi wei, min min,xinlin,xin yi, xin tze, jia hao jun
was there
i oso dunno how they actually felt but i think everybody felt the same
i feel like we are sad but we try to be happy
and help one another to overcome
to be honest i am very very glad that u all are my cousin
even thought due to my study we seldom talk to one another
but when we meet up we always felt the bond between every single one of us
so on the day whr we have to shift my grandma ro the cemetery
we have to sort of hold on to the van
i saw my mum
she is tearing up
but i dunno what to say to her
so i left her with her sibling
and i was with my cousin
tbh again, i was holding up my tears to and especially when we were holding on to the van
and walking
and all the memories i had with my grandma keep coming out
even thought arnd that time i was like arnd 5-6 years old
i tried to rmb what she teach me
and talk to me about
i almost cried out
but i told myself to hold it back
cause i dun wan other to see how i actually feel
because i just somehow think that it would a burden to them
just that type of feeling
and after everything end
we had to come back to singapore
and i needed to attend sch
and it was like a month left to my o's
so when i when back singapore
i didn't felt like talking to my friends or even to attend sch
but in the end i still went
so i was feeling down the whole day
and when ppl ask me what happen
em tearing start accumulating at my eyes
and i tried to hold it back
so i quickly ans them
and turn around to wipe my tears away
but lucky by the end of the day i was feeling better
thanks to my friends
even thought they didn't do much
but lucky they sort of kept quiet  for me
and didn't really ask much
thanks haha
so now my grandma 100 days is coming
so i have to go back to Malaysia
so i think every should cherish everyone around you
yea even thought i didn't have like any argument with her or anything and have very nice memories with her
you should still cherish every moment u have with everyone
yea tears was in my eyes when i was typing out this post haha
bye ppl and i will be celebrating x'mas in malaysia with all my relative hash yea sort of the first
usually i would be in overseas
so yup i think i will post soon so i will wish u merry christmas later haha
bye for now!

Woohoo

Outfit for the day!

Photo editting

Tried photoshop!

here are the pic

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 BEFORE!

AFTER!

hahah 

in this photo i really dun like how my arms look

like

the colour LOOL

look like muslce arm 

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

see

i help the bridesister

to photoshop too haha

i am the bridesmaid!

and the YOUNGEST

LOOOL

MAKNAE!

i think 

got like 

20+ year age gap

LOOOL

but ok la they dun look that old/?

i suppose LOOOL

i know them since young

so 

yea

haha

big jiejie LOOOOL

my skill may not be that good but still

is okay to me

LOOL

P/S: there is oso another new post below!

dun look down on yourself =)

Hi!

How's life?

LOOLOOL

so not like me

hahha

prelim lately

as what my chers say prelim before

national day

is 

a

HARD PAPER!

yea

its kinda true

did my Amath paper 2

andi dunthink i can get an A from Paper 2 T.T

this is the first time i did such a hard paper for amath in our school

but normally in tuition the paper oso very hard

but i just dun care LOOL

and

before the paper start

a bunch of ppl keep saying

 FAIL ALRDY LA

I THINK I CAN SLP FOR MORE THEN 1 HOURS

SINCE THE PAPER IS SO LONG

if not they tell their friend

OI YOU BETTER NOT PASSED AR

FAIL TGT

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and i am like 

HELLO?!?!?!

CAN YOU STOP INFLUENCE OTHER PEOPLE??

YOU DUN WAN TO DO WELL

THEN THAT YOUR

PROBLEM

!

It actually kinda affected me la

SO BITCH

SHUT THE F*** UP

I AM NOT INTERESTED THAT YOU ARE NOT GONNA PASS YOUR PAPER OR WHAT

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The problem here is just

DUN LOOK DOWN ON YOURSELF!

i oso can do well for my science humanity

but at least i 

PUT IN MY EFFORT!

yea

just look up on yourself

just dun be too OVER

see so cute

think positively =))

jiayou everyone!

Glowing Board!

HI!

hehe long time nv update

so i am gonna update today!

and today i gonna talk about what my dad bought for me from Macau! 

hahah

or maybe other things too

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 ME and the glowing board! LOOOL

just ignore my face 

just dun imitate it *cough*

LOOL

 So this is how the glowing board look like

is in pink! and with LED light beside

 I am a GLOW BOARD!=)

 hehe

me and the board again with words!

This is what i wrote on the board u there you can see

SMTOWN! woohoo

got running man too

KIM JONG KOOK

kookie haha

BYE

loool

i lazy to type liao so no other thigs to say 

maybe i wanna to tell you

my prelim 2 exam is HERE!!!~~

dying down here

stuffing all my notes inside my head

and thinking why is SS important

when i dun intend to control a country or what ever shit

so tml is SS Paper!

so i will do my BEST!

BYE BYE

Mameeeee

Hi peeps!
Today got tuition..
And i ate mac for dinner!!
Filet-o-Fish!
And i think mac ice lemon tea is the best

Last night, i dreamt about going to the obs at puggol to buy their t-shirt
LOL
Such a weird dream
Then end up they didnt sell all those tshirts any more
Somemore my parents went with me to buy haha
End of dream lool
Today
My aunt give me this
MAMEE
MONSTER!
Haha ita been a long time since i are it so i am kinda happy ehen she gave oit to me
Is chicken flavour
But i prefer the bbq one more haha
So ya
Nth happen much today

Eyes~

My eyes are getting more and more tired each day :(
So like after a week LOL
I finally bought an eye mo
LIKE FINALLY hahaha
So monday is Youth Day!!
Means Holiday!!
But filled with homework...
Cuz teacher think that since there is youth day so is long weekend..
And i am like
IS JUST ONE MORE EXTRA DAY!!
HOW IS THAT LONG???!!!!
I AM NOT A ROBOT OKAY!
I NEED A BREAK TOO!
I KNOW YOUR HAVE FINISH UR STUDY LA SO STOP REPEAT THAT SENTENCE AGAIN AND AGAIN..
I am not 奈特
In case is dunno what is that is a robot name that act in absolute boyfriend /darling
Ya that its ok bye